21 Weeks

This week I have really learned a lot, let me just take a few minutes to tell you. Wesley and I have never really been apart for very long since we have been married. The longest has been 2 nights when he went on the men's retreat for church and then when he went hunting with his dad 2 years ago. Well he had planned another hunting trip with his dad and brothers, only this time he was going to be gone for 3 nights. Being emotional, I was so sad for him to go. Not only was I sad he would be gone, away from me, but also away from Camden. I am still not sure what was going on in my heart, but I really think that God wanted me to learn something through all this. The night before Wes left, I began to panic. I had a busy day at work, I was emotional, and all of a sudden I thought that I had not felt our baby boy moving around in my tummy all day. I started to really worry. Throughout this pregnancy I have known that this child is from the Lord, and he is a blessing. I know that the Lord has a great plan for his life. That night, I began to really wonder if all this was true. I became so nervous that something bad may have happened, and I had been stressing all day. I decided to try every home remedy to get Camden to move around. I drank chocolate milk and laid flat on my back, chugged some ice water, walked around, laid really still and gave him a few nudges. Nothing! So my panic just turned to tears and I became a sobbing mess. I thought, how could Wesley leave tomorrow morning and we don't know if everything is ok with our son? I was being extrememly selfish, and relying on my self for comfort, which I of course could not give!
That evening Wesley prayed with me and reassured me that everything would be ok. He had faith that Camden was fine, and he was such a supportive husband through my horrible night. Well that night I went to bed just exhausted and prayed continually, I just asked the Lord to comfort me, and to give me peace. The next morning Wesley woke up before me to get ready to leave. As he was just finishing up, he was standing near the bed talking to me. I had my hand on my stomach and all of a sudden I felt a jab! I laid really still and felt 3 more. I just began to cry because I know that I was not deserving of all this, yet somehow the Lord has still blessed us beyond measure! Wesley came to the bedside and he also felt close to 5 kicks. I just had to pray to thank the Lord for such an amazing answer to prayer!
The rest of the weekend went by so fast and I was so comforted. Wesley was gone, but yet I was not lonely. I had the Lord with me, he was by my side and giving me the love and joy that only he can give. I had a great weekend, and although I missed my husband, I was not in tears.. And Camden decided that he wanted to become waaayyy more active. I now feel his kicks on a daily basis, and they are a reminder to me everyday just how thankful I am for this baby boy.
So this week I learned that I am not in control. I learned that I need to turn my worries over to Him, and he will be my strength and my comfort. I am so thankful for the relationship I have with my Lord! I am also so thankful for the amazing husband I have and his incredible faith.
We are so excited about this miracle! Thank you Lord!